Still Haven't Figured It Out!

Haha, I forgot how to get to this blog, but I figured it out a year later. I still haven't figured out where I am going. A lot has happened since my last post, I am at a different job now, less pay, but also less stress. I live with my parents, which is fine for now, but really want to get back out on my own, want my own place. I am really struggling financially and I am tired of being alone. I would love to find a nice caring man, one who wants to spend time with me and realizes what a great catch I am. I am been on several dates, but nothing has come of them. I went on a date Sunday with a real sweet guy, not really my type, but he was very nice and had a good heart, we went bowling and then had lunch. I got an email from him today and he said he thinks he needs more time before he dates........see this is what happens to me, I can never meet the right guy. I really think he probably thought I was too fat. My weight has really been bothering me a lot lately and I can not get a handle on it and do something about. I have been battling depression and no one understands it. I feel like I have lost my way and can't figure out how to get back. I just want my life back! I want me and my children to live in our own home again. Be our own family, do our own thing. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate what my parents have done for me but I really need have my own place. If I could get their father to pay me like he is supposed to, that would be possible, but as it stands on my single income it is next to impossible to make it here, unless I didn't have a car payment, but I need a car so I am stuck. I feel like I am trapped in a cage, no money, no home to call my own! I just wish I could figure out the solution to all of this. I even got my bachelors degree thinking that it would help, but it really hasn't helped much. I don't know, I guess I just need to do some more thinking.