Just Don't Get It!!

God, I am struggling. Financially it is killing me! I have to watch every single penny I spend. Why are things getting so bad? You work so hard, to get nothing, but some gas, a little food and not much else. I have a college degree for God's sake and it hasn't helped much. I just don't understand how everyone is making it. I really want to move out of my parents house by August. The closer it gets, the more worried I get, I am afraid I won't have the money. I really hope the Mike starts paying me child support like he is supposed to. If he was, then things would be a little easier. I really love being a mom and taking care of everything, I hate living at my parents house where I am treated like a child and not free to be the mother I am meant to be. I want to give the best life I can to my children. It is so hard though, since my divorce I have done nothing but struggle financially. Yeah, I would probably would be doing a little better if I wasn't so generous with my last relationship, he really topped off my financial devastation. But I can't look back only forward. Things have got to get better.